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Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Is it depression? - Enough is Enough

I am shattered. My self-confidence has decreased manifolds in these years. I am not happy about who I am. I don't see the world as it really is or maybe I am seeing too much. I care too much. And all this really hurts. It is not that I am complaining because all this have happened because of me. The uncertainity, fears and the guilt above all the assumptions I mount on them kills me more. I am living in a fake world and I am wearing the fake mask which becomes black and more black as the time passes. Reasons can be uncountable but now this has to stop.. this has to go. It has been bloody 4 years in this menace and I can't live like this anymore else I will be no more. God is with me then why I am afraid of myself and the society.. now I don't want waste a second. Its not about moving on but its about the change. This will be tougher than the journey that I am writing about but the destination will be worth-living. Action starts today. I need everyone's prayers. God help me.

I am also not happy with my blog's template. If anyone can suggest a good template which goes with my mindset and this blog's personality+title then it would be great. The last date for suggesting the template is 2nd July 2006.

Scented Words posted by Raheel Lakhani :: 5:48 AM :: 13 Comments:

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Monday, June 26, 2006

Music Review KANK; and some more.

Kabhi Alvida Na Kehna, a movie in which our own NRP blogger Shaima is also doing an one-scene cameo with couple of her friends, has a great lurrvely soundtrack.. after all it is a Karan Johar movie with SRK, Rani, Priety, Abhishek, Amitabh, Ritesh and John woof! The music is composed by the genius Shankar Ehsaan Loy Combo. The songs are melodious and upbeat.. the good thing is that all songs are good. And guess who has sung in this album. Our own Shafqat Amanat Ali Khan of fusion. This is an album worth-listening and especially Where's the party tonight is worth-dancing. For main bhi hoon wannabees who thing Indian music doesn't come near to their standards of I guess not taste but mindsets then can't you appreciate diversity when actually its really good.

Btw this week will be interesting because many reality tv shows have their finales this week. It is also sad because after this I don't think there will be anything good to watch on television but the show for which I am eagerly waiting is New York Stories on HUM TV. This is a series of telefilms directed by the genius Mehreen Jabbar with two other directors: Sofian Khan and some Butt guy. It starts thursday at 8:00 PM. Do watch it because there is alot of fantabulous stuff in it and I am 200% sure about this.. oh I can't wait for thurday to arrive and see Deepti Gupta's performance. I hope she is in the first telefilm. AND I DONOT WANT SIMPLE LIFE INTERNS TO END.. I LOVE DUMB SILLY STUFF TOO =P apart from the thora mind waley shows.

Scented Words posted by Raheel Lakhani :: 2:39 AM :: 4 Comments:

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Friday, June 23, 2006

Don't worry I will be back soon in full action

Thanks for everyone for showing concern and shouts. People I am really busy and I hope to get free in a very or so. But I do manage to blog once in a week as I blog on H.O.PE. every friday. For all those curious ones this is what my schedule is like these days:

10:30-12:30 Teaching at Computer Class
12:30-2:00 Watching TV and lunch
2:00-6:00 Loadshedding which is followed by afternoon nap
6:00-9:00 Conducting Self-Development sessions and Library Work
9:00-11:00 TV+Dinner+Writing Assignments
11:00-4:00 Exam preparation and checking emails

Duh!! Kitne Faltu kaam karta hoon, parh hi naa loon main :p

Scented Words posted by Raheel Lakhani :: 2:06 AM :: 8 Comments:

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Wednesday, June 21, 2006

Time will tell

It seems like I have lost a friend in a fight between true friendship and orthodox values(which never even come close to the definition of ethics).

Update: I am not questioning the friend but the society and its norms.

Scented Words posted by Raheel Lakhani :: 4:08 PM :: 4 Comments:

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Tuesday, June 13, 2006

What Sort of Artist Should You Be?

You Should Be an Actor

You have a flair for the dramatic, and you probably already do a lot of acting in your day to day life, just to entertain yourself.
No need to steal the spotlight from your friends... You'll get plenty of attention once you start acting professionally!


SO ANY OFFERS??? Just Kidding.. I would love to be behind the camera but as far as being in front of it is concerned, not so sure!!

Scented Words posted by Raheel Lakhani :: 1:41 AM :: 5 Comments:

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Tuesday, June 06, 2006

Father's Day Gifts Den

With miserable failure of my first shop at CafePress, I still haven't lost hope and opened a temporary second shop for Father's Day gift products. We all mashallah se celebrate Mother's Day with great enthusiasm but when the day of daddies come, we tend to be a bit lazy. Spend this Father's Day with oodles of love and cherish this wonderful relationshiop, also dont forget to thank them for everything that he has done and above all God who has given us such lovely relation. If these designs are good enough to convey your feelings then do buy and gift them to your father, grandma and aunts.. or else you don't have to because I am not trying to commercialize the occassion. Don't be late in ordering ;)

You can buy these unique, witty and fun gifts from:
http://cafepress.com/gifts4dad

Happy Shopping :)
and don't forget to
PASS ON THE MESSAGE!!

Scented Words posted by Raheel Lakhani :: 11:28 PM :: 4 Comments:

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